Garden

this year my garden didn't do so great. Between moxxi eating everything and me not feeling well enough to do much most of August it just didn't go so great. I did great a fair amount of peas, beans, carrots and potatoes. Everything else moxxi munched away on. She ate all the stuff I harvested as well but she left enough to share. Both the dogs love veggies so I can't really complain as they are good for them. But she ate all my turnip, beets and squash lol I am hoping to get planing out my garden for next year in the next month or so.

Growing your hair out

anyone who has grown or tried to grow thief hair out know the pain if can be. You have this period of time when no matter what you do it won't look good. And you just wanna cut it to make life simpler. But if you can get through that faze then you are golden! I'm just getting through that faze. Right now it's finally doesn't look horrible when i get out of the shower, wake up or have day old hair. Now it's at least manageable and workable. The struggle is real. All you folks who go their hair out they know the pain of it!

The awkward stage 

Urg people must think I'm lazy

Normally it doesn't bug me what people think. But with having a a few invisible illnesses and  dealing with the side effects of meds or coming off meds is hard on the body. I shouldn't feel bad if I have to go lay down and rest. Or lay down because I'm dizzy. People don't get that having ME and CFS you need to rest. Between that and fibro I definitely need to rest after  being out of the house to do anything. Think before judging people or needing rest and calling them lazy.

Beautiful jewelry

a lovely women I have gotten to know makes jewelry. I love the stuff she makes its very classic and classy. The piece I have I wear almost every day. I can't wait to get another piece to add to my collection. Her pieces are extremely reasonably priced for the quality of the pieces. I can't get enough of this beautiful jewelry.
https://www.etsy.com/shop/GamineAndGray

Withdrawal from prescription meds

my Dr and I took a huge step and decided it we best for me to try and get off some if not all of my prescription meds. I can't imagine being on them for another 40 years. Just building up a tolerance  and needing higher dosage or more meds to cope. We decided to try and function with meditation, essential oils, massage, diet and exercise. It's worth a shot. A lot of these meds they don't even know the long term effects of them and the side effects out weight the good they do.
With coming off my first set of meds cymbalta I knew there was people who had withdrawal. But I figured I could over come it and not let it effect me in such a big way.
I was wrong. I have been off it now for 4 weeks and am still having symptoms. The first week was horrible. I basically laid in bed to nauseous and dizzy to move or do anything. Keeping liquids down was a challenge.  There were times I would start crying, laughing or have fits of rage all over nothing. The brain and muscles zaps are way less frequent now. Basically the only things that are  causing me issues is the dizziness I get a few times a day and the nausea. It's been the worst I feel sick all the time and when I think I feel ok it turns out I can't keep food down again. I'm hoping in the coming weeks I can get my guts regulated etc. I am hoping that this will be a huge step in the right direction where I can start to maintain my health with diet, exercise, essential oils etc. I would rather be on less meds and need to take Tylenol once in a while then be on something that's clearly so toxic and doing more bad then gold for my body. I have already seen some of the issues I had start to resolve them self slowly.
This is a new journey and I'm so happy that my Drs and muffin are so supportive. It definitely makes it easier knowing I have the support.
This has been a big part of why I have been missing for the past month or so.

Mia

Sorry I have been missing. It has been a busy summer and I have had a lot going on. Currently I am Down and out cause of coming off some meds and having horrible withdrawal. Also I'm going away for a few days coming up then I hope to have some time to write some posts. Hope you are all enjoying your summer

mourning your former self/ life

I have gotten to a point with my health declining that I didn't even recognize my self from pictures a few years ago. My skin, hair and eyes glow and look healthy. I was a lot thinner even though I thought I was really over weight.  Looking at these pictures is really upsetting for me.  Thinking of how far I have declined and how I might never look like that again. My nephew told me the pictures we had on our wall couldn't be me cause the person looked so different and I was so much bigger. That was a really low point. I know he's just little but kids often speak truth. That's when I realised I don't even look like the same person and I can't do the things I use to and I need to come to terms with this so I can move on and move forward. I can't keep looking back and longing for what was and what I could do. I am chronically ill and that has changed my path. I am in pain every day and I need to make peace with not being who I was and not being able to do what I could. I didn't choose this life. But it's the life I was given and I need to make the best of it. I took most of those old photos down. I'm gonna put newer ones up. From the happy moments  of this life I have being in pain and sick every day.