Blarg

Why can't I have one day where my health isn't a huge issue. I know I'm lucky I am not as hard up as many people. I just feel like I can't get a break. Well reading some tea knitting and some Disney movies  tell I fall asleep will cure all for the night. Lion king one and two are on the list as well as a series of unfortunate events #9  and sisterhood of the traveling pants 2. Some times you just need to be a kid.

Weather

Well the rain finally stopped! Now I just have to wait for things to dry so I can spray the ant hills. I already put away the chicken wire fence. I will have to do some weeding today and spray the wasp nest. Still a lot to do Muffin has to do some tilling and cut the grass.

Urg

I broke a filling in my sleep :( it hurts to swallow it's so sharp! Why do I have such bad luck
Waiting for the dentist to call back

How is it September already?!?!

Update on my reading I'm on book 90 of this year.
I have finished 7/30 hand made Xmas gifts. Which seems like pretty good progress in 3 weeks.
This weekend is my brothers wedding. As excited as I am I am also nervous. I am not found of big groups. Also it's the first time in 6 years I will see my father. I am sure it will be fine. We are having the out of town family and wedding party over for a Bon fire. We are trying to get the house and yard in shape. Its hard with my health and back. Also it's been raining so much it's hard to get the weeding etc done. We have so many frogs and toads out here! I found 10 tonight trying to make their way into the house. They are not usually this many and so close to the house.
Well I better get back to my busy week.

Reading.

I am on my 77 th book of the year so far. But recently been slowing down I am so tired I keep falling asleep when I try and read! Not a bad thing cause I need rest. But I love reading and have stacks of books on my to read books. Time to relax in the yard and do some hardcore reading!

Chronic illness

Living with a chronic illness is something you can't understand tell it happens to you. You can read and hear about it all you want. Live with someone who has one. but it's never the same as having one. I am starting to learn I have to listen to my body more. Stop pushing my self. This is my reality. I am a not overly healthy person. I have been fighting it and thinking I can just go about things. I finally hit that wall. This is my rock bottom. I don't have the energy and strength to visit with someone or shower every day. Daily tasks are hard and sometimes near impossible to do with out being layed up. I think one reason I have been in denial is my mom also has an illness and I grew up watching her go from being healthy to bed ridden for years. She found that happy medium and now it's my turn to find mine. It's something I need to go at alone. I can't believe how lucky I am to have such a great muffin who supports and does everything in his power or understand what I'm going through.
This is my reality. I must accept it and own it.

Lost in every day life

I have been doing a lot of thinking about life etc
After a night out talking about cooking and Julia child and then watching Julia and Julie this week I realize I feel like Julie. I feel lost in the hustle and bustle. I have many many hobbies and interests but feel no direction. I wish I had the strength she had to buckle down. I have been doing a lot of cross stitching. I have started some Xmas gifts. Some neat cross stitch projects I hope people enjoy them :)

New puppy!

Our new puppy is such a sweet heart! She fallows me every where. I love her so much! She was just over a pound when we brought her home<3

Moxxi and mater are the best of friends! :) 

Both the loves of my life :)

Crafty

I am trying my hand at cross stitch for the first time. I joined a monthly cross stitch group where they send you a part of the pattern every month. I have been struggling. I keep missing stitches! But it's coming together nicely :) it will look really great in the end. The theme is once upon a time <3

Winter blues

I always feel down this time of year. This year seems worse. A lot of family stuff going on. Muffin is working a shift we don't see each other we actually pass each other on the road. We did get a new puppy and she is such a little love! So that going great and always makes my day. :) but it's the worst winter in like 80 years truckers are saying they have seen nothing like it. I have been stuck in a snow bank on the highway and also stuck on a closed highway for over 10 hours. Tonight again I had to miss work.  The highway is closed. I always feel so bad missing work but I can't keep risking my safety! I really hope this is the end of it it's been -50 for over a month. About 2 months to go! We are planing a trip to San Diego and Vegas for a week so that should help. Although I will miss my puppies. I don't trust people to take as good of care of them moxxi is to little to go out side (3lbs) and In a new house is gonna likely have accidents. mater is very allergic to a lot of food and muffins parents never listen to any of that. They always over feed him and he gets so chunky. I guess I just need to let go and be thankful they will look after them. I just hope we don't have a vet bill after with sick dogs :(