How is it September already?!?!

Update on my reading I'm on book 90 of this year.
I have finished 7/30 hand made Xmas gifts. Which seems like pretty good progress in 3 weeks.
This weekend is my brothers wedding. As excited as I am I am also nervous. I am not found of big groups. Also it's the first time in 6 years I will see my father. I am sure it will be fine. We are having the out of town family and wedding party over for a Bon fire. We are trying to get the house and yard in shape. Its hard with my health and back. Also it's been raining so much it's hard to get the weeding etc done. We have so many frogs and toads out here! I found 10 tonight trying to make their way into the house. They are not usually this many and so close to the house.
Well I better get back to my busy week.

Reading.

I am on my 77 th book of the year so far. But recently been slowing down I am so tired I keep falling asleep when I try and read! Not a bad thing cause I need rest. But I love reading and have stacks of books on my to read books. Time to relax in the yard and do some hardcore reading!

Chronic illness

Living with a chronic illness is something you can't understand tell it happens to you. You can read and hear about it all you want. Live with someone who has one. but it's never the same as having one. I am starting to learn I have to listen to my body more. Stop pushing my self. This is my reality. I am a not overly healthy person. I have been fighting it and thinking I can just go about things. I finally hit that wall. This is my rock bottom. I don't have the energy and strength to visit with someone or shower every day. Daily tasks are hard and sometimes near impossible to do with out being layed up. I think one reason I have been in denial is my mom also has an illness and I grew up watching her go from being healthy to bed ridden for years. She found that happy medium and now it's my turn to find mine. It's something I need to go at alone. I can't believe how lucky I am to have such a great muffin who supports and does everything in his power or understand what I'm going through.
This is my reality. I must accept it and own it.

Lost in every day life

I have been doing a lot of thinking about life etc
After a night out talking about cooking and Julia child and then watching Julia and Julie this week I realize I feel like Julie. I feel lost in the hustle and bustle. I have many many hobbies and interests but feel no direction. I wish I had the strength she had to buckle down. I have been doing a lot of cross stitching. I have started some Xmas gifts. Some neat cross stitch projects I hope people enjoy them :)